Free Willy

Meh, I didn't watch this movie. It's a movie right? Then, why was Willy called free? Did he/she had his/her freedom? Was he/she allowed to do whatever he/she wanted?

In a way, I am like Free Willy. I am free, although not free in the sense that I could do whatever I want. I'm free because I have nothing to do. I will start initiating. I will start working. I will start developing. Rather than will, I shall. I'm a procrastinator though, so I won't wonder if someday I'm still idle. If I'm still the same lonely boat on the turbulent rapids, going wherever the waves go. If I'm still the same ol' one who keeps on dreaming, who keeps on isolating, who keeps on being crazy, who keeps on being aloof.

But hey, I'm trying hard. I'm trying to be an author now. Well, here's my hanky. Wipe the tears off your eyes. That was just a literary idea. No big deal, seriously. Embracing a new task now.

PS. The procrastinator part was true.

A long and endearing vacation

Didn't I say I'm sarcastic? Oh, you weren't informed? Then please, help yourself. The door is over there. Get out of my office and talk to my secretary. You won't? Oh. Security? There's an intruder in my office. Get him out of my office. Right now!

*end of mind theatre*

Well, yes I'm sarcastic, but I'm also sarcastic sarcastic. I don't make sense? Put it this way. You have made a trap. But that trap is also a trap. So, it's a trap 'trap'. Get it now? Good. Therefore, my vacation will be really long. 3 months ain't bad, eh? Yeah, I know. But endearing? No. I'm not bored, but that doesn't mean my vacation's already endearing. As you can see, endearing has another whole lot of definition. And it doesn't define my vacation, sorry.

I'm having fun, yes. Who doesn't like going out into the sun (though it's super hot the sun might actually burn your skin so bad), exploring, going to malls, shopping, videogaming, surfing, and all other stuff related to summer vacation? That person must be nuts. I sorta have it all - in the present. The present doesn't define the future as it doesn't define the past. Whether you're having fun in the present or not, it doesn't guarantee that you'll experience the same in the future. It's like, your attitude today doesn't define your attitude tomorrow. Yeah, it's already proven many times: the only thing that's constant is the world is change.

You could say I'm in shallow water, since it's not really that deep. But oh, curse the Ministry back home for their slow processing of important papers and documents. Don't they know that one's fate is entirely dependent on their hands? I wish they knew how important they are and stop don't giving a penny in their job. I certainly can deduce why our pride has been so painstakingly negative to others. It hurts, when one of your compatriots doesn't consider his pride as a whole, it hurts when one of your compatriots isn't selfless as you are. The question has always been "how far can you go?", yet it remains unanswered.

I have always been aware of fake nationalism. I do not deny it, nor I condemn it. It has always been there. Unseen. Neglected. That it why actions always speak louder than words. Then why are they still doing it, I wonder.